care? or....no care?

Sometimes, I just want to disappear, 
just to see if anyone would care. 
No one cares if I’m here anyways. 
I just want to see if their lives would change if I wasn’t around. 
I’m a pain in their side. 
They’d probably be happier. 
They don’t really count me as a friend, like how I think of them. 
And my family wouldn’t notice either. 
Everything would probably be so much better without me.